Dearest Haserte

Dearest Haserte, I’m sure you don’t want me to say this emotion you are experiencing is only temporary. The pain you are going through right now, I know it too. I know it hurts, but never use that as an excuse to shun yourself away from those who also love you. I know you cared for him, I know how much you loved him, and when he disappeared, why carry yourself down to your grave? It pains me to see you in despair. It pains me whenever you want to stab yourself. He is but a helpless babe you tried to protect. Wounds heal, and you will too. Don’t cower under the wings of the demon but instead, seek the blinding light and grasp the warmth even though the light will burn you. He is in a better place now. You did nothing wrong. Even if you want to tear yourself a part and break who you are, know that if you try to escape, you will only hurt yourself more. If you still feel guilty, then the least you could do is to not die, to love him, and to become the person he expects you to be. That way his memory will live on through you. If it pains me to see you like this, I’m sure it will be just as painful for him. If you are happy, then I’m sure his soul will be too. Getting over the death of someone you love is extremely difficult and even now, I still feel the pain. But instead, I use that as my strength and will to become the person he wants me to be. I’m sure you can do what I did as well.

Best Wishes,

Anonymous